malam ini

yes, malam ni nak pergi talk women and social problem. aku tak tau ape akan dibincangkan dalam talk tu tapi aku terpanggil untuk pergi. so...jeng jeng jeng... :) mintak mintakla best yer..

FrUiTy.JeLLy.LeMoN

Drowning in my own room... I just can't figured out what to do next. Either I work it out or I end up sleeping. Fudge. I hate to clean up those mess that I've done. And rainy days will make it all worse cos I will feel sleepy and dizzy.... the ZZZZzzz sound again. Roomies, u guys are evil! I know there's something... something that I can hold on to... :) the smell.. the feelings when u wear it.. definitely will makes me awake!

student aku daaa....

"Therefore, I decide with confidence to apply for studying in the Master degree."

Adus....pening kepala aku menanda sample kertas yang diberikan oleh Alaina untuk diedit kerana dia ingin meneruskan masternye di universiti ini... Aku yakin ini bukan die yang tulis.

ALAINA ALAINO

Exam dah habis.noktah. Bukan. Aku tipu kerana tanggal 6 haribulan ini merupakan paper last aku yang aku sangat gerun semasa melihat carry marksnya. Tapi tidak mengapa kerana Dr. Nora tidak menambah 10% lagi. Aku selamat daripada direjam hebat oleh grade C yang semakin bermain di kepala. At least subject ni aku nak pulun dapat B+ atau B pun kira mantap lah tu. Jika mendapat Grade B- atau C+, aku tidak akan mendapat sebuah laptop baru dan hidup aku akan bertambah suram dan muram dan GERAM. Cis, ini mesti gara-gara terlalu banyak barmain bersama pelajar Thailand di dalam kelas Bahasa Inggeris.

Hah, bercakap mengenai pelajar Thai... (LAWAK) Tapi aku tidak mahu menjadi keji kerana dia masih baru di dalam dunia bahasa Inggeris jadi aku tidak mahu mengecilkan hatinya gara gara pecah perut apabila mendengar cara sebutannya. Sangat.

20/3/2010. 4 p.m. Maryam B4.4b

Aku berpeluang untuk mengajar seorang budak Thai bernama Alaina (bukan nama sebenar). Alaina datang kesini untuk bercuti tetapi telah dipaksa oleh rakannya Alaino (bukan nama sebenar) untuk belajar bahasa Inggeris. Jadi Alaino pun mengiklankan kekosongan untuk mengajar bahasa Inggeris di laman web UIA.
So, aku pun berminat dan ingin mencari pengalaman. Tipu. hahah. Aku tak berminat pun sebenarnya cos final exam kot. Mati. Tapi memandangkan bayarannya yang lumayan aku pun dengan ringan tangannya menelefon Alaino.

Sawadikhappp Krap Khhun Khapppp Khaaappp Maii..(bukan the exact sentence. Aku merapu sahaja.) Mulut aku terlopong besar. Eh, betul ke number ni yang aku dail? asal cam orang Thai je. Aku tak tau pun yang die ni orang Thai sebab die tak bagi details kat dalam iklan tu. So, aku pun terus letak handphone takut tersilap orang.

Call lagi sekali the same thing happened. Tapi aku tau mata aku tak juling cos aku dah check betul betul number die. So, aku pun terus speaking... Bla.. Bla.. Bla.. Bla..

Mula- mula aku ingatkan kena ajar Alaino. Tapi tibe tibe Alaino kate bukan die yang nak belajar English tapi kawan die Alaina. Itulah cos aku pun pelik sebab English die takdelah berterabor mane pown nak belajar English lagi. So, now aku kena ajar Alaina yang mana die ni "ZERO" English nyer kate Alaino. Aku pun gabra giler cos macammane aku nak ajar die kalau aku tak tahu bahasa Thai. Matila sekali lagi. Tapi Alaino kate die boleh cakap cikit cikit je. Jadi penipuan berlaku disitu. Cakap tadi "ZERO"... mane satu ni? Adoi, aku pun pening.

Cakap cikit cikit... Hurm. Oklah. Bantai je. So, aku pun mengambil peluang pekerjaan tersebut.

21/3/2010. 10a.m. HS CAFE

Hai mane la budak Alaino ni.. Kate nak jumpe. Sebelum budak Alaino tu datang dengan Alaina, aku pun sa..pedek dulula. Lambat sangat.

Tiba tiba muncul Alaino lalu Alaino memperkenalkan aku kepada Alaina. Wahhhh, cunnyerrr Alaina ni daripada Alaino. Serius cun cos die ade mate cekelat. :P hahah. Anak murid aku yang pertama dan sangat comel. Aku bukan Lesbo tetapi kagum dengan matanya dan pipinya yang kemerah merahan. Guna blusher agaknya. :P

Then, Alaino mengatakan bahawa aku boleh membawa Alaina kemana sahaja yang aku ingini. Ok... sudah pastilah ke Library kalau tak mane lagi kerana UIA tidak mempunyai spot spot yang menarik untuk melepak.

Aku melihat gerak geri Alaino yang mana matenye macam Zombie yang tak tido setahun.

Aku: Alaino, what's wrong with you today? You look tired.
Alaino: No, I feel sleepy. I haven't took my bath yet.

Aku: WHAT??? (Ok the only rule in this story is not to say "WHAT" otherwise tampar diri kau sendiri). Giler kuat doe aku cakap what tu... hadoi. Tapi naseb baik die tak terase.hahah. Aku paham budak KAED kan.. Paham Paham.

lepas 10 minit Sok Set Sok Set ngan Alaino, die pun dah nak ciao balik bilik..

Aku pun.. hheheheheheh.. Jom Alaina kite gi jalan jalan. eh, tak Library. mule mule aku ter"speaking" laju sangat yang pade kite semua ingat bahawa itu adelah speed yang sederhana sahaja. Jadi Alaina meminta aku rewind balik perkataan aku sebelum ini.... aku pun terpakselah SLOW MO..

Alaina: Toilettt.. (sambil mengangkat tangannya tanda bertanya kepada aku dimana
toilet yang terdekat.)

Aku: Owh.. I'll show you where the nearest toilet is. Come with me.

Alaina: I not understand you meannnn... (sambil memandang heran kepada ku.)

Aku: WHAT?? (sekali lagi tampar muka ko fiza.)(Aku terlupa bahawa aku perlu ber slo mo dengan Alaina.)

Tapi kali ini bile aku berslo mo dengan Alaina die tak paham lagi. Jadi...

Aku: Toilet.. I.. know.. Come.. Follow.. Me.. OK? (bercakap kepadanya dengan muka yang penuh ekspressi. Tak sia sia aku pernah masuk teater belajar facial expressions.hahah)

Alaina: Ok. (lalu mengangguk anggukkan kepalanya tanda faham. "OK" merupakan perkataan yang selalu die guna. Sangat pendek tetapi mesejnya sampai.)

BERSAMBUNG...

hatiku seperti awan yang mendung kelabu...

Remember those walls I built
Well, baby, they're tumbling down
And they didn't even put up a fight
They didn't even make a sound
I found a way to let you in
But I never really had a doubt
Standin' in the light of your halo
I got my angel now

It's like I've been awakened
Every rule I had you breakin'
It's the risk that I'm takin'
I ain't never gonna shut you out
Everywhere I'm lookin' now
I'm surrounded by your embrace
Baby, I can see your halo
You know you're my saving grace
You're everything I need and more
It's written all over your face
Baby, I can feel your halo
Pray it won't fade away

I can feel your halo, halo, halo
I can see your halo, halo, halo
I can feel your halo, halo, halo
I can see your halo, halo, halo

Hit me like a ray of sun
Burning through my darkest night
You're the only one that I want
And I'm addicted to your light
I swore I'll never fall again
But this don't even feel like fallin'
Gravity ain't began to
Pull me back to the ground again

It's like I've been awakened
Every rule I had you breakin'
The risk that I'm takin'
I ain't never gonna shut you out
Everywhere I'm lookin' now
I'm surrounded by your embrace
Baby, I can see your halo
You know you're my saving grace
You're everything I need and more
It's written all over your face
Baby, I can feel your halo
Pray it won't fade away

I can feel your halo, halo, halo
I can see your halo, halo, halo
I can feel your halo, halo, halo
I can see your halo, halo, halo
I can feel your halo, halo, halo
I can see your halo, halo, halo
I can feel your halo, halo, halo
I can see your halo, halo, halo

Halo
Halo

Everywhere I'm lookin' now
I'm surrounded by your embrace
Baby, I can see your halo
You know you're my saving grace
You're everything I need and more
It's written all over your face
Baby, I can feel your halo
Pray it won't fade away

I can feel your halo, halo, halo
I can see your halo, halo, halo
I can feel your halo, halo, halo
I can see your halo, halo, halo
I can feel your halo, halo, halo
I can see your halo, halo, halo
I can feel your halo, halo, halo
I can see your halo, halo, halo

Ratatouille vs Dog Nose! Haiyak!!!

hah, mari mari mari...lawan sama aku si gemok!


Tuesday,26th January 2010, 12 a.m...

Here's the funny thing that happened tonight. Ratatouille and a dog nose that was on duty in my room. Who else? Megat terawis lah!

2 days ago

My white furry blue ocean eyes cat, Megat was curiously interested with "something" hidden below the fridge.So...I just thought, ahh... just another cockroach that he's trying to catch anyway.Nothing to worry about. I know he's a good hunter but I don't think that bringing the cockroach to me and proudly present it is a good idea. Yuck! Euww! Buekkk!
Never! Never! Never and thousand times no I will kiss my cat since I saw him munching the cockroach in front of me as it's like he's eating KoKo Krunch. (euwww, kembang tekak aku doe!)Hurmmmm, but I'm telling you guys, he's too cute to resist since he's cute and huggable! Waaa...have to bath him always so that I can hug & of course kiss my fat lil' prince.

Tonight. 10 p.m

Although he's kinda gross, but I still love him. Why? He's my HERO!

The thing that was hidden below the fridge two days ago was actually a RAT!!!not a hamster.It's a RAT! A BIG ONE!(exaggerating)A BIG BLACK HAIRY RAT! How on earth he still managed to get into this house even I have hired Megat which is a hunky fat well trained cat with dog nose ability to guard this house from the rats!

Hurm Hurm Hurm.... Sigh. (Think fieza think...)

11. 30 p.m

The rat eventually ran to my room cos he's scared to death. Pulak??? ARGHHHHH!! Now I have to move my things to my brother's room since he moved out from the house one month ago. But, still kena cari jugak si "GRUMPY" tu kan!( the rat's name to make it easier.) huh.

11.45 p.m

Megat still guarding my room hoping hat he will be able to catch GRUMPY alive and the rest of it I will pass it on you guys to continue the story. You know lah kan when a cat managed to catch a rat what he would do... Gory things will happen. Kepale tertanggalla, tinggal ekor la.. Perot terburaila... Mate je tinggal la... (again exaggerating.hahah.)

Well, I hope that you are BUSTED Mr. Grumpy! To Sir Megat, GOOD JOB. I shall reward you with extra extra extra delicious friskies and you favourite snacks, cockroaches! (Even though I know it's yucky thing.) Enjoy!

YES YES! BABAI!

yabedabedoo by fieza

Suddenly, out of no where I think this is the best lyrics that suits u. (not u "B")
HERE WE GO...

Here's the thing we started off friends
It was cool but it was all pretend
Yeah yeah
Since you've been gone

You dedicated you took the time
Wasn't long till I called you mine
Yeah Yeah
Since you've been gone

And all you'd ever hear me say
Is how I pictured me with you
That's all you'd ever hear me say

But since you've been gone
I can breathe for the first time
Im so movin on
Yeah yeah
Thanks to you
Now I get
What I want
Since you've been gone

To Mr, Good luck with your life. Have fun travelling.

SURPRISINGLY not surprised

I'm the kind of people who are impatient when it comes to surprises up to the point that I keep asking, begging and drooling until they tell me of what it is. FUDGE! SPOILER. And often my mind full of wishful thinking on getting the best joyful surprises had always turn out to be... NIGHTMARES full of DISAPPOINTMENT and HATRED! Suddenly, the image of puppet of a small doll controlled by operator's hand dancing and laughing in front of me. (hahaha... you foolish!Full of silly wishful thinking!How on earth will you get such surprises? Probably fall down from the sky???You will never get it until you die!" Long I stood, the sudden rush of sadness filled my soul. I believe they were actually swearing towards my attitude.Oh God the Almighty, how would I get one? At least one before I die............... Neither did I know, I will end up with the best surprises ever happen in my life this coming vacation! That's the best jubilee ever!EVER! EVER!

Here's to you _______________! Hope you are not another disappointment.CHEERS!:D

Of Snows and Hot chocolate.

yummy....

"Get up!Get your camera! Let's go!" "Snow, Snow!"

London 28th December 2000

Snuggled deep under a duvet enjoying a creamy hot chocolate with a dash of strawberry marshmallows together with a hint of cinnamon powder...I could not believe that I was actually touching English soil! I was actually in England!After few years of struggling to make it into reality...Now, I am actually here! A few lines from Rupert Brooke's "The Soldier" came into my mind:

"In that rich earth a richer dust concealed;
A dust whom England bore, shaped, made aware,
Gave, once, her flowers to love, her ways to roam,
A body of England's, breathing English air,
Washed by the rivers, blest by suns of home"

The poem has opened up my eyes to the beauty of England and to tell you frankly, I use the poem as my internal motivation to seek for a place to study in England. I could really picture the pride he felt about being English!

Inspired by Mdm. Syahreena Mohd Shahroom, College of St. Mark & St. John, University of Exeter 2000-2005-

The Voice Within...

"adeh..berat buku ni wehh..tapi cover je lah muke.ngeeeeeee.."

If you can study, just continue STUDY,
If you can't study, workla as a "CASHIE",
You just cannot rely on CHARITY.

Earn low SALARY,
Just enough for daily MAGGI,
Go to work not by MYVI but LRT.

Colleagues formerly FRIENDLY,
Daily treated to NASI LEMAK and KOPI,
Now gradually i get CRAZY,
Because I'm soooo LAZY.

Boss has no SYMPATHY,
Work always must HURRY,
Say I'm not enough BUSY,
Always ask me to do OT...(Haishhhh!)

Midnight, go back by TAXI,
TAXI surcharge KILLING ME!
Now I 'pokai' and no more MONEY,
After that I went back by 'JALAN KAKI'.

Borrow from mummy kena EXTRA FEE,
Borrow from 'ALONG', kau nak MATI?!
Cos money is never FREE,
To spend it LAVISHLY.

Now go and STUDY!!!
Don't be LAZY LAZY,
Otherwise...

Earn low income makes you FELL GUILTY!
Nak shopping pon kena pikir DUA TIGA KALI...
Nak bagi mummy duit? apetah lagi...
Waaaaaaaa... ;(

MUMMY SAID: "ALONG YOU BETTER STUDY!And then we can go BERCUTI!"

Nak ke Tak? Aku tau Kau nak! hehehe.

Ok memandangkan ade orang comment gambar aku yang dah di"edit" ni cun. Cun ke?Perasan. Tapi bolehla setakat nak tutup jerawat batu yang macam tar jalan tu.heheh. Ok, dengan menggunakan KUASA SUPER POWER dailymakeover.com telah menyelesaikan masalah gambar-gambar yang mengalami masalah jerawat ataupun jeragat JIKA korang pandai menggunakannya cos ade concealers, foundations, fake eyelashes and yang paling best siap ade CONTACT LENSES lagi! Mesti korang berjam-jam duduk depan laptop mengadap muka yang siap sedia untuk diedit.(jangan terlebih edit macam opera cina sudahlahhh...) Hah, sekarang dah tak payah make up sane sini buat rosak muka dan menambahkan jerawat menggerutu yang menggerunkan semua pihak pabila melihat wajahmu yang dulunya ayu kini bertukar menjadi zombi kampung pisang. Oleh itu, Kamsamida diucapkan kepada Readers Digest. Tanpa anda siapalah kami. Aku suke sangat guna dailymakeover.com tapi sekarang dah tak seaktif dulu. So, GOOD LUCK girls! ;D (tak tau la website ni dah basi ke tak...hahhahaha.)

TAK TERASE BAHANGNYE LAGI...

Hai semua, aku baru kat cini. So tak excited lagi nak memuntahkan isi hati. Jadi boring la cikit. Well, everybody seems to have a blog they could rely on as a diary. Aku? Baru nak mula.harharhar... Selalunya aku sangat expressive nak luahkan perasaan melalui lukisan. Tapi sekarang langsung takde satu pun lukisan agung yang terhasil memandangkan assignments yang sangat banyak,exams, midterms, quizzes sejak aku melahu kat UIA nih!hampeh!wah...banyaknyer... alasan... manusia ni kalau tak nak buat sesuatu.(tapi alasan-alasan tu memang betul yang menghantui kepale hotak aku sekarang ni.)Tapi biasela...still relax lagi, memain lagi...sampaila ade mood nak buat sume tu. (hehehe.PEMALAS!)So, aku harap dengan terhasilnyer blog yang aku sekali pandang jer nak create ni dapatla jadi bestfriend aku walaupun starting die ayat-ayat yang membosankan tahap basi berkulat.Happy Blogging starting from now on sampai ke mati.Chayok! ngeeeeeeeeeee... ;P